Power Cut

SAD

Seriously wondering if I has it.

Thing is, the only conscious reaction I’ve had to the amount of light that’s going on at the moment is ‘oh, it’s dark at the moment’ in the mornings or earlier in the evening.

I guess people don’t exactly go ‘OH GOD, THERE IS NO SUNSHINE!! HOW WILL I LIVE MY LIFE NOW?????’ but you get what I mean.

Probably doesn’t help that I had the worst night’s sleep ever this morning at my friend’s house. For some reason last night she didn’t close her door (she normally does). I assumed there was a reason behind it, only it resulted in my waking up every time her mum put a light on in the room next door or in the bathroom, and it allowed the dog(s) to come in. One of the dogs would not go 5 seconds without woofing or scratching itself which made the bed shake. But I assumed there was a reason behind the door being open so I left it open.

There was also this long cushion right next to me which made me feel really claustrophobic and I only had one pillow and not two so I was nooot comfortable.

I know, what a freaking princess, but I could not sleep and it was pretty horrible.

When I did sleep I had a shitty dream, the second I’ve had since Saturday. Both about work/career stuff. Ugh.

I’m also now waiting for a potato to cook so I can eat.

And yeah I’ve just felt like crap today basically. Really low. Don’t really want to move or do anything.

I’ve felt pretty pants generally for the last month or so. My appetite’s changed and weight’s gone up which is another symptom. The only thing that really makes me feel better is N and he is really busy at the mo.

Maybe I’ll go stay at his tonight anyway. Just to sleep next to him. Hrmmmm. Meh.

Anyway, bleh bleh bleh, merhh.