Power Cut

Ok so I know I said it won’t break us

And it totally totally won’t if we don’t move in together in September but maaaaaaannnnnn I want it sooo soo bad, I’ve been waiting forever to move in with him - ok maybe not forever but definitely the last year and a half - and I feel like I’ve been waiting for us to really start on our journey. Yes, we have been together two years and that’s something amazing to me but the way I see it, the sooner we move in together the sooner time can pass the sooner we can get married the sooner we can start having babies and etc etc. Which all sounds VERY quick but it’s not, I know it’ll be a lonnnng and slow process if it happens but that’s exactly why I want to start it already!!

Also I think it’s good we’ve had issues this past month. I’d be nervous about moving in with someone (romantically) whom I’ve not had at least one serious ‘hmm’ moment with. And I think some of the problems can’t be solved until we do live together, and that surely if we’re living together on a 6 month contract and with other people too that’s the best environment to start on because it’s not heavy duty and massively pressured, particularly because if it was here he would effectively have a spare room.

I was talking to my friend about it and she kept emphasising the point of don’t rush into it, take your time and think about it… the way I see it, we are going to fall out sometimes. And we’re going to question our relationship. That will happen. As far as I’m concerned, it’s normal and healthy. If things stayed the same all the time they’d go stale. That’s why we exfoliate, children! And I have thought about it. I’ve been thinking about it for such a long time, and maybe all this stuff puts it in a new light but as well as the problems I also have to look at how we’ve dealt with them - we talked and talked and were still affectionate and honest and I think it’s made us learn some new things about each other and the dynamics of our relationship. Which is healthy. Not to mention if we set everything back 6 months every time we encounter a problem I will NEVER BE A MOTHER.

Hahahaha. Just thought I’d add that lil psycho note in there. Bahaha.

Anyway what do you guys think? Am I a nutcase? Am I smoothing things over for my own convenience because I am an impatient freakazoid?

Let me know. Seriously.